Moving! and Europe!
Change is our only constant and haven't we done this all before? Some rambling diary style, trying to get into the flow of writing again
We moved far away from the heart of Dubai's city recently. Now when I wake up, sunlight pours through the windows and my view is of trees and birds. I have found that I can stare outside the window for ungodly amounts of time, I feel like a cat.
The days seem longer, the light is tinted tea green. My grandmother also moved from the Philippines to come live with us a few weeks ago and she’s been cooking us food which feels super weird. It’s great food, but it feels wrong to wake up and see breakfast ready instead of like making a protein shake for myself or skipping the meal entirely. I guess I really grew to appreciate the small happy things over the past few days. I am so excited to get back to work though. I failed my monk mode because we moved to a hotel-apartment early before finally moving to this house cause it wasn't ready yet which threw my schedule and plans completely off kilter. I can't wait to get back into my routine, replan my schedule, and start doing once again.
I love my life, things are looking up: dare I say it - everything is going pretty well. The blazers in my closet are color-coded, my new room smells like gardenias and lavender, and I have the freedom to do what I want. I bought myself a kindle recently. I still feel like vaping sometimes but the urge is mostly gone now. I sometimes feel abrasive towards the people I want to impress but maybe that's just in my head and no one really minds and I can let myself breathe out. I'm psyched to get back to meditating every day again. Say what you want about it being a habit with negligible impact on your productivity– the truth is that it helps with my mental clarity and everything just feels so much better with it.
Europe
This trip was gorgeous and went so much better than I expected. This was possibly the perfect trip. Superb food, great sights, and I met the kindest people. Visited the swiss alps, castles, boat rides, french rivers, CERN obviously, the UN, some old mansions, boutique gardens, crepes along a lake, everything was *chefs kiss*.
I can see myself living in Europe for a while in the future.. The world just seemed so much bigger there compared to the atmosphere in Dubai. There was actually culture, buskers everywhere, and people were happily having dinner in the streets which was super heart-warming. The architecture made me feel like I was in a forever Disneyland, with the old buildings around trimmed with gothic accents. Gorgeous.
Anyway yeah! Moving and Europe took up most of my August. Met new friends, lost some friends, same-old same-old. Some heartbreak here, some loving new people there. To an even better September :)